Forgiving yourself

Many years ago I rocked up to the door of a man who would become my mentor. And when he asked me, what are you wanting to know today? I broke down and said, everything is wrong. I am wrong. I keep screwing everything up. My marriage has failed. My health is screwed. I feel angry and scared all the time and I’m gonna stuff my child up if I don’t sort my shit out!

He looked at me and said, here’s a piece of paper I want you to write this down. “I have always done the best I could with what I knew at the time of the doing”. To which I argued no I haven’t look at my life! To which he said, tell me about your life. 

When I did, many visits and homework by me as well, I realised I was the sum of my experiences and passed down beliefs, but, if I could throw a dose of kindness and forgiveness MY way, maybe I could see that I really had done my best and always will. 

I know it’s hard to do. I know it won’t always feel true. But please, cut yourself some slack and forgive yourself for what you feel you need to and then, step forward into the new. Repeat where necessary until every cell and fibre of your being believes it’s true. It’s worth it. 

You are worth it. 

**if you are a person who has lived through abuse or trauma, I am NOT suggesting you can apply this toward your abuser. I personally have not forgiven my abuser and that was part of my healing! I’m talking about your own healing. Because you deserve to be free of the pain you carry**

#lettinggo #youareworthit